Speech at My Wedding

I was clearing my stuff (a lot still in brown boxes and yet unpacked) which I had not cleared from moving house. I found a slip of paper tucked away in a rattan box with all of my knick-knacks. It said Speech at Wedding. Ooh... it was the speech that I made during my wedding abt 3 years ago. Reading it caused my tear glands to squeeze out some water.

I stand here today, in this momentous time of my life, having this privilege to address my parents who have made an impact in my life.

For my dear deceased mother- she passed away when I was 17. I felt that I have lost her somewhat in her 10 year long battle with scleroderma. But I remember her. I remembered the pain that she had to go thru fighting the illness. I remembered her faith in God that did not waver even to the end. Her advice to me- one about living my life daring to try things that she never had the guts to. I also remembered one funny aspiration she had for me- to marry a nice man from a distant land and to take her away to a cold country so that she will no longer feel hot in sunny Malaysia. I guess, in some way, I will be fulfilling her dream today.

To my current mother - thank you for making my father such a contented man. I will take the good I see in the relationship both of you have into my relationship with my husband.

To my father- I cannot start to say how wonderful you are. I have watched you closely in the time that I grew up and I want to say that I admire your principles in life. Being your daughter was my privilege. To be able to grow up being equally loved, fairly treated, talked to with respect and honour is something that not many daughters are able to receive. But I did. *Pause* I remembered the incident when I was a young and rash graduate and made a huge mistake (causing you significant damage) but all you did was calming look at me and said "we all make mistakes, girl... and we need to learn to get up and move on." And so, you have given me the greatest legacy- because of you, I can see how God is as a Father, one who is firm but kind, ready to forgive and who loves me regardless of who I am or what I have done in my life. Thank you for everything Pa.

DK Cafe and DK Company

It's was a lovely meeting place for us.. the ex- DK company peeps meeting at the DK cafe. It has been more than a year since we all left the company. I looked at them all across the table laden with yummy food and whispered a thankful prayer that for now, everyone had found a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

Our ex-boss (Little Mama) looked great.... altho she lost a lot of weight, it was not because of work stress and I can see that she was happier at the current position as Grp Dev Manager. And her new assistant Y (also an ex-colleague), who had had a tumultous time in her last 2 jobs before returning to be under her wing again, was beaming as it was just confirmed that she would be assisting Little Mama.

Tigerlily was doing well in her position with a good brand and a great new hairdo- and her eyes was shining with some unexplained joy. The only Dr in our midst promised us to bring a bottle of her product for our usage... much to our 'delight' in using such an 'intimate' product. Dr J looked a little peeved at the end of the dinner cos we teased her so much but it was all in jest and fun.

G was bright and smiling when she came to join us at the table. The job has been kind to her allowing her to fulfill one dream of hers- finishing up her house renovations! Fairlady was a vision even in her bizarre green army clothes. I think that her job suits her personality...she now gets to meet exciting people in her new job.

Soup was quiet as usual but she looks happy that night. I did not manage to find out if she enjoyed her job but since she recently got married and she is of such a lovely nature, I am sure that her marriage is a good one. The only man in our group was leaving a less than luster job to return to his marketing roots and he was thriving in a relationship.

Me? I... er..I have a new job which although is not at all what I imagined I would be doing... ie consulting.. but it really pays the bills, I have an interesting dissertation going on and I have a cat who obviously is besotted with me... ah yes! and of course, a delightful husband.

It is clear... that for now... we have found our pot of gold.

Kenangan Malam Purnama

This is a song I used to sing for my choir club when I was staying in campus at K3G-407 Kamsis Z in UKM. It's one of those old beautiful Malay songs that I love.

- Choral Arr. : Khoo Soon Teong
- Senikata : Harun Aton
- Piano Acc. : Tan Jek Lai

Matahari condong ke barat, kelompok awan nan indah
Bayu malam menghembus sepoi membawa rasa gemalai
Hanya dikau yang kukenangkan, dikau dan aku berdua
Mengecapi nikmat kemesraan buat selama-lamanya

Kita berdua, sehati dan sejiwa
Menyambut kasih sayang, Alangkah bahagia
Pada malam indah dan permai, sang bulan tinggi mengawan
Aku terpesona dilambai oleh wajahmu menawan

Hanya dikau yang kukenangkan, dikau dan aku berdua
Mengecapi nikmat kemesraan buat selama-lamanya

Life on Hold

The 3 things that has been consuming my time that I have not written here for at least 3 months....